For several months now God has been speaking to me about something that seems so simple but it isn't.
In fact, it isn't only "not-so-simple", it feels almost impossible. But thankfully God knew I would feel that way and he wrote a simple little sticky note just for me.
Luke 1:37 "For nothing is impossible with God."
Thank you God! So what, you are asking, is the problem ...
How do I live my life for an audience of One? How do I write for an audience of One?
This idea has been floating in my mind for quite some time. But the interesting part is the phrase "audience of One" has been popping up in so many forms.
- It was the theme of a book I read many months ago, A Lasting Impression, by Tamera Alexander.
- A word from a friend asking me why I had to be published.
- A devotion calling me to love many, but only please One, by Holley Gerth.
- An ache deep in my spirit that i had fallen off the original path God had placed me on.
Maybe "audience of One" is the popular phrase of the day - it doesn't matter to me. What matters to me is that God has been whispering it to me to teach me something.
I received another round of results from my contest entries the other day. It has me thinking again about why am I doing what I am doing. Do you ever question that? Ever wonder what you should be doing or if you are already doing it?
I know God asked me clearly to write stories down. I cannot even pretend I didn't hear that message. However He never said 'get published'. His words never mentioned anything about that. I find the more I seek it out and travel that road - the more doors are closed. Not physical doors, really. But 'peace' doors. As I push forward I lose sight of what I am doing. I lose peace. I lose confidence. I lose ... everything that feels good about writing.
